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This is it

I was trying to find a word to sum up all the events that took place in my life this year and what they represented. A gargantuan task I felt it was at times since it is to place a body of experiences into one word.  Strangely enough, I think I found the word:




No, not the rhythmic dance which involves people seeing how low they can go, but the state of being where no clear decisions have been made and therefore u are in a type of vortex waiting to see which direction you are pulled to. Yup, 2009 was that for me.


Google (hahaha) defines limbo as:

·                                 oblivion: the state of being disregarded or forgotten

·                                 an imaginary place for lost or neglected things

·                                 (theology) in Roman Catholicism, the place of unbaptized but innocent or    righteous souls (such as infants and virtuous individuals)


Hey two out of the three definitions relate to me (not that aint bad).  As usual I am never what religion defines me as even though I do think I’m virtuous (ummm control the snickering).


I saw people come and go from my life as usual. When some left, it hurt but it was understandable (right Samantha?), others refused to leave no matter how hard I tried. Some even tried to weave their way back into my life and I even tried to mend some broken bridges (well not many because most times I’m right). In the end, the entire mélange of experiences left me feeling…”Blah” (Is that an actual feeling? It’s the only thing that comes to mind)


2009 saw my department move from 60 people strong to 6. While I’m one of the six (Thank God for small mercies), one cannot help but remember the fallout, the bad decisions you knew certain senior people were making and the resulting numbness felt by all those around as a result of transfers, separation packages and to a lesser extent, terminations.  Yeah, Christmas didn’t feel the same at my job this year and that is weird since I’m not a “Christmas” person.  Alas people grow on you and in the end you miss the jokes, the clumsy phrases (Sky Fee Movies/, Pedestral) and the attempts by certain staff members to engage you in conversation when they weren’t sure if an insult was going to come their way… Ahh the smell of fear…I miss thee


I didn’t get to go on my usual long holiday trip this year so that was a bummer but I did get a 10 day stay at the St. Kitts Marriott. Too bad it was for Securities Exchange training and I spent most of it in my room over a binder full of financial notes and scribblings that I made and then couldn’t decipher later on. Alas I passed the course so let’s see what new adventure comes from this training.


As I write this blog, I am realizing how boring my life in recap was and while it is not an excuse to slit ones wrist, it just means I need to make 2010 an amazing year.


1.      My BFF (sorry for using term) Matthew got an amazing job in Geneva this year and also moved into one cool apartment with a view. Me? I repaired the broken bed in my second bedroom (don’t ask how it broke).

2.      Jeunille Trancoso-Blackman and Michael Bourne (they don’t know each other) both went back to law school (one in California, the other in the UK). Me? I started Rosetta Stone online language courses and can’t find the password anymore.

3.      A lawyer at the office just bought a really nice house in Orange Grove. Me? I’m still renting over a lady with pompeks that still want to kill me.

4.      A couple people have lost a ton load of weight and some have abs and bodies to die for. Steups!!! Me? I still wear size 38 jeans but I no longer have a second trimester-type stomach, it’s smaller but not gone.

5.      I went to SIX wedding this year (including my mother’s).  Me? My last date was ..ummm well.. not this year, but I have had a few for the decade.

6.      Danielle aka Suzie gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl I’ve seen in a long while. Me? Well I’m one of her godparents and well (gulp) this little lady has my heart.





As I wrote that line I realize that 2009 wasn’t a bad year after all. I took a truck load of photos at the various weddings and events that I attended. I bought 80 CDs this year and surprised myself by listening to a lot of them frequently. Of course in every year you end up buying some duds and you discover some gems. 


Here’s my list:



1.      Alicia Keys – The Element of Freedom: I can’t begin to tell you how much I LOVE this album. The Track” Love is My Disease” is my favorite song by far.

2.      Chrisette Michelle – Epiphany: This would’ve been my number one pick had the previous album not existed. I don’t think there is a bad song on this album whatsoever. Why this album wasn’t nominated for a grammy I will never know. “Another One” is my favorite track on this album

3.      Kina – (Self Titled):. I rediscovered this gem thanks to hearing “Hurt So Bad” on So You Think You Can Dance over the summer. “Girl From the Gutter” , “Hurt So Bad” and “Still Here”

4.      Original Cast Recording – 13 : Ok this is a musical I saw on Broadway in 2008 that didn’t survive the financial crisis. It is a playful CD that reminds me of a simpler time when all u had to worry about was trying to make friends and survive school. “A Little More Homework” is the stand out track.

5.      Kings of Leon – Only by the Night: if someone told me at the beginning of the year that I would be so into this band, I would’ve told them that they were crazy.

6.      Melody Gardot – My One and Only Thrill: Strangely enough, I found out about this artiste from a highly unlikely source. Rich Sultry Voice and some beautiful arrangement. “ Baby I’m a Fool” is the one you need to hear.

7.      Maxwell – BLACKSummer’s night: This CD was bought because of the artiste and from the opening note I was happy with the purchase. “Stop The World” is my favorite on the album

8.      Adam Lambert – For Your Entertainment: I didn’t want to like this CD, but I really do. “Whatya Want From Me” and “Fever” aren’t bad at all

9.      Whitney Houston- I Look To You: All I need to say is that “Million Dollar Bill” saved this CD for me. With an opening song like that, there is no way the album could be sappy

10.  Lady Gage – The Fame : Like Matthew, I really didn’t want to like this album, but she aint half bad


HONARABLE MENTION: Kelly Clarkson – All I Ever Wanted: Really good CD And the title track starts off a lil Franz Ferdinand-esque and just kicks ass!!!!



  1. Kris Allen –Self Titled: it never got there. Another AI winner that will fade into obscurity even though he was brilliant on the show
  2. Rihanna – Rated R: For Rubbish. Did she really need to curse on this?
  3. Colbie Caillat – Coco: What was I thinking?
  4. Various Artistes –Mamma Mia Soundtrack: What seemed fun and endearing on the screen turned out to be a big ole noisefest on CD.  Why is Pierce Brosnan singing again?
  5. Prince – Lotusflow3r: 3 CDs and I barely can find a few tracks to like.



Yes I spent a lot of time in Movietowne this year, I was only happy with a few of the movies I actually saw this year.

  1. 500 Days of Summer: BRILLIANT MOVIE!!!! Who knew the kid from 3rd Rock from the Sun was such an amazing actor!!! This movie rocked for me!!
  2. STAR TREK: Tell me you saw this movie! If not, then GO NOW!!!
  3. Inglorious Basterds: Tarantino makes movie-going just a pleasure.
  4. Twlight Saga: New Moon : HATED IT!!!!  Bella sets women’s rights back a thousand years
  5. Notorious:  Not a bad biopic at all. It just wasn’t self indulgent nonsense
  6. Underworld:Rise of the Lycans: The Best of the trilogy.
  7. Taken: Could Liam Neeson be my daddy and beat up a few ppl for me too?
  8. Wolverine: Good, but something was missing. Can’t put my finger on it.
  9. Drag Me To Hell: Disgustingly Good
  10. District 9: WOW!
  11. I Can Do Bad All By Myself: Nope, Tyler Perry always needs help with it!!!
  12. The Hangover – Laugh Out Loud funny


Well, that is it for now.



See you next year for my resolutions!!!


Posted by on December 31, 2009 in Uncategorized


The Power

It is amazing when you sit with people for lunch what kind of topics you come up with. One minute we are discussing the universal uselessness of Human Resources and next we are on to losing socks in a dryer which then easily flowed into the pure hatred of having to do economics at university.  The seamless integration and flow into different topics around a lunch table always amazes me.


On one particular occasion, we were discussing dating and meeting new people. The conversation had been going on for a long time when I interjected with what was supposed to be a light hearted comment:


“You all lucky, fat women just don’t watch you and declare that  we should be together” after a chance encounter.”



Then one guy said:


“Maybe that is your superpower? You make fat girls more confident.”

“No!!! (Steups!) A super power can’t be that lame.”

“You didn’t see Mystery Men with Ben Stiller or what? It can be that lame. One guy’s power was throwing forks I think”

“Yeah but what good is making fat girls feel confident”

“Maybe you’re supposed to sleep with them, Stefan?

Oh Geed!!!” (Chorus of voices on the table).

Then a voice at one end of the table shouted:

“If I had a super power it would be to make all women cum, by me either staring at them or touching them”


“Can you imagine being a board meeting and making eye contact with…..(name removed)… and she just has one right then and there?


The conversation got worse after that………but it got me thinking. If I had a superpower, what would it be?



I have friends who can recall events 20 years in the past at the drop of a hat. Some are just brilliant at everything they do, sports, video games, singing…the works (this one sicken me). One can’t help but be nice to everyone and everyone thinks the world of him. (Another sickening gift).  One can even smell stuff in a 3 feet radius to him (that includes people’s breaths) and another sleeps with everyone he wants to. No one he has ever wanted has said “no” to him. If they have, I don’t know of it. Then there’s me….ordinary. I’m not even super sarcastic or super funny. I’m almost what they call “just ok”. What is my power!!!


Over the course of my life, I have wanted different super powers.


Super Strength and Invulnerability

This power requirement mainly manifested itself during my early teenage years when every other week it seemed I was in a fight with a classmate or some complete stranger all because I either cursed them, made reference to their female parental figure or said something sarcastic that usually involved me making fun of their intellectual capacity.  I never won any of the fights. I didn’t however, go home bloodied though. Somehow I manage to escape most of them without too many “Rihanna-like” bruises (is it ok to make this joke now?) or scars.


This phase was due to my obsession (well my brother’s mainly) with comic books and particularly Superman. I just knew he would be able to withstand everyone that came my way and then they would all leave me alone. TV didn’t help with this obsession either. Shazam, Mighty Isis (don’t laugh), G- Force (Battle of the Planets), The Powers of Matthew Star , He-Man, Thundercats, The Greatest American Hero, Six Million Dollar Man, Bionic Woman, Wonder Woman (stop laughing I say!!!) and many others, just had me jumping around all over the house and yard, wishing to be powerful. Alas….I remained a mortal without the ability to read the mind of the neighborhood bully or develop an immunity to the sound beatings I would get for a host of crimes that I was completely guilty of, but lied about.


I just needed to know my power. I knew I had one. I just needed to figure it out and hopefully put it to good use.


Ask anyone, we all wanted a super power.


Flight, Super Speed and Invisibility are all cool powers but I was never a fan of them much, given my fear of heights, general clumsiness and depth of body shame. You think being invisible would make me not think about it but I am sure I would be the one person who would have to strip out of his clothes in order to be invisible. Yeah these powers are just not for me. They only made Invisible Girl that way so that she won’t be naked in a comic book.  The Invisible Man had to strip. Such a double standard!!!!



Now we come to the good stuff!! The ability to read and control people’s minds was a HUGE desire in the late teens early twenties (still is today in my late  I thought about it long and hard and I knew that I would not abuse the power at all. Then I remembered that reading people’s thoughts can come back to bite you hard. You learn never to trust anyone if you can read their minds. Hey I don’t trust anyone now and I can’t do it, so imagine if I actually had the power!!! DRAMA!!! Plus if I could force people to do things, then I think that is tantamount to rape of some kind.


Although I know a few people who needed to listen to me at particular points in time, I still think it is better that I let me fall flat on their asses. Plus I know a few people who I was madly in love with that may not have appreciated me forcing them to be with me. Hmm but that would’ve made me happy…hmmmm….Ok back to reality. LOL



YES!! YES!! YES!!! I want this power but without the “stink” Nightcrawler –type scent that could go along with it.  I would never be late to any function and I could run from various fights/arguments easily. The only drawback is that it might make me a tad lazier than I already am since I would get dressed and arrive a venue exactly when I need to while everyone else waits on me. This is one I wanted badly!! This is partially why I liked the movie “Jumper”. If only they had cast someone other than Hayden Christensen, then we would’ve seen someone actually act and not sulk for 2 hours….


Space /Time Travel or manipulation

I’ve made so many mistakes in the past that going back in time and trying to fix them would be disastrous.  Let’s just leave well alone. Although there are a few confessions of love or advances that I would like to erase from my memories. I don’t think those will affect the space time continuum in any big way. All it means is that I would be less of an idiot.


Shape Shifter

“Manimal” made me want this power as well but I wanted to be able to manipulate form and size as well (fly on the wall. if you catch my drift). The drawback to this would be losing my clothing in order to shape shift.  Hmm but then again I could morph my body into that of an Adonis. Ok this one is a keeper.



The only power I have ever truly wanted!!!! To be able move something/someone across a room would make me so happy. That way no one would touch me. I always preferred Prue’s power to the others totally (Lord I’m referencing Charmed…I need to get out more!!). The only drawback that I can see is that of brain exertion. Too much or to frequent use will tire you out and leave u vulnerable to attacks when resting. Hmm not if you have all of them living in fear. MUHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!





I have however discovered that I posses some super human abilities. Let me list them for you:

  • The ability to make strangers hit me within hours of meeting me: This extends to quiet and shy people as well. My mother always said that I bring something out in people that by the end of the night they want to attack me on some level (It usually involves me being assaulted in some form or fashion).
  • Big and Tall women love me: They can’t help themselves. Trust me, they can’t. It’s just that way. One look at me and they lose all sense of reasoning and then they need me in their lives.
  • The ability to constantly get bad service: There is something about this power that just upsets me. I can go to a restaurant with multiple people and my order will be the ONLY one they get wrong or I’ll be the one the server gives attitude to.


I also know my Kryptonite:


The smell of fish and shrimp just makes me want to vomit. Then there is the part where I am actually allergic to it and will probably break out in hives or have my lips swell to the size of watermelons ( I exaggerate here but you get my point)


So what’s your super power? Trust me, you have one. We all do



If you are dysfunctional like me then you should know where these phrases came from:


"Oh Elders, Fleet and Strong and Wise. Appear before my seeking eyes!"

"Zephyr winds which blow on high, lift me now so I can fly"


"In Brightest day, in blackest night, no evil shall escape my sight. Let those who worship evil’s might. Beware my power….."

"Teeny Weeny Magic Beanie pointing towards the sky. Give my Muscle, Power, Vigor, Strength – Form a Super Guy"


Posted by on December 4, 2009 in Uncategorized